Lately

I'm just not happy. I can't really explain it but I've just been lying to myself and everyone around me that I love. Don't know what has gotten into me and I don't know if anyone can help me really. There are things I can never tell anyone about because I'm afraid of there reaction and trust. I always trust people to easily and then I just head up getting hurt. I'm so lost these days I wish someone could just point me that right direction. I hate being alone sometimes and wish I found my "someone" but just haven't. Sometimes I feel like I don't care anymore and don't want to do anything about it but its whatever. I'm losing myself ...